HYSTERICS

What do we do
When we know not what to do
When everything seems so right
And at the same time so wrong
When looking back
Brings you forward
When you can't stop to worry
Because someone's somewhere happy
When you try to fool yourself
Of all the selfishness around
When some things are meant to be
Played again and again
When you can't cry enough
That tears won't anymore fall
When busy from all the trials
About your jaded life
When driving slowly
To prevent this crash
And winning small matters
When loving someone
Is all that makes you sad

August 22, 2006

FATIGUE

Boats floating in my head
Now sailing I don't know where
Too many of them I can't count
Rowing in the middle of here and there
They're not even real to my eyes
Closed I feel them so light
But I am never so blind
Were they lost in their plight?
Or have I gone mad?
Float and sink, come and go
In this eternity of an ocean
Whenever you want them to come
No control under the sun
Everything is so futile
Desperate to find something
Myself in this single, lonely isle
Working hard all I can
I don't want anything anymore
I needed to be rejuvenated
Coz I'm all worn out
And I'd rather be dead

July 11, 2002

DEPART

Serenity. Stillness. Tranquility.
No equivalence to peace on mind
To prove my inner ability
Forcing past events to unwind
To think is to gain
My own unrivaled freedom
A god to an everlasting terrain
Ruling not a thing in this kingdom
I'm an actor of two plays
Performing so well even I don't know
Battered in what I thought for so many days
I know now but confused on what to do
How I long for them to come
No compare to rising contentment
You should share me some
Coz you are happy without intent
That I may die and live no more
Not showing even a damn care
Looking for just one open door
Meet my challenges and all their dare
Maybe there I'll find peace

July 11, 2002

now for my 2nd blog...

i will soon scrap my geocities site. this blog will now be my posts for my poems. i had old poems to place, i'll soon add new ones. you can also check out my other blog about insights, quotes, and nasty theories...;p anyway, you can check it at http://www.bloghuman.blogspot.com
...and guys comments for my two blogs would be nice! thanks ;)

THE GATHERING OF MAGIC

Ever heard of Urza and Mizra?
The first discovery: the Ornithopter
The cause of their quarrel: the 2 gems
The sources of energy and power
The tranquility of the enchantments
Or the armageddon of all lands
Or the unleashed wrath of God
Bring forth cataclysm and anarchy
Summon your lords and their minions
Counter and interrupt spells casted
Angels and archangels of the white plains
Spellcasters of the blue islands
Elves, druids, and Gaia herself of the green forests
Fiery instants[cheese] of the red mountains
And the dark lords of the black swamps
Dragons, ghouls, paladins, and knights
Dual lands, pain lands, and the city of brass
All these are illusions of grandeur
The chilling beauty of the moxes
A sacrifce more potent
Never more precious than a black lotus

28 january 2002

PISAY, WHERE?

One of the unforgettable places
A small compound with greens
The main building[Humanities] up front
Flanked by the four dormitories
The cooperative in the middle
The multi-purpose gymnasium
Open courts of tennis and basketball
The soccer field with the track
Found on the compound's right
The lobbies: front and the back
Buildings made up of stone cement
Regular classrooms with
Windows hanging out in the open
Beautiful, yes, and comfortable
Tha atmosphere is cool and electrifying
Soothing the surrounding tension
A remarkable site
The place for my high school life
I can't think more of a better place
Located in Agham Road of Diliman
Philippine Science High School

27 january 2002

PISAY, WHEN

What's the best part of our lives?
Standing on the sharp edge of the knives
With friends along on our sides
Companions forever across the tides
Times when trouble never cease
Like leprosy or plaguing disease
Finding within ones self the beast
Blinded by an unknown mist
The change of self is dramatic
Like glass turn into plastic
Things happening we can't predict
Trying to reach the sky like an addict
Maturity is coming to sense
Outlook of life getting more dense
Looking through a very thick lens
Young warriors with paper and pens
Life is getting stranger
Not knowing wether it is worse or better
Mine happened because of one letter
Others like me become stronger
This is my high school life

31 january 2002

MY PERFECT GIRL

She's beautiful and wonderful
She will brighten up your day
I believe this to be true
Coz that's what others would say
She moves smoothly and with grace
She speaks not a single lie
She is miracle itself
And, yes, cows will fly
Her body is soft and warm
Never exhausted, always so lively
Compassion and sympathy reflected
A perfect girl she will always be
Who would want for more?
My life is now complete
I would ask for her hand
And never will I implore deceit
Don't pinch me now
She is my life
Long lost but now found
Angel in disguise
Eternally bound

19 february 2002

LOVE II

You are created by the heavens
A rose petal wet with the morning dew
Sunshine penetrating the mists
A promised hope that burns
An eternal, rising flame so bright
You talk so innocently
Burdening me with the guilt of life
Simple beauty yet so elegant
Petrifying so many hearts
For you can have your one and only
And I think I would not fit
For you are a goddess
Casting enchantments with mortals
And I may be one of the imprisoned
Seeking sanctity only in love
Forbidden, yes, but not impossible
A dream of fairy tales
That engulfs ones soul
To oblivion and beyond
I love you-
God's lovely maid

8 february 2002

LOVE

Can we measure love?
I thought love's more than words
More than anything, infinitive
But love has its breadth and depth
Defined as passion of the sexes
Can it be a hidden talent?
Hiding in the shadows of emotions
Waiting to overtake
Some excited for the moment
Others fear and dreaded it
Why?
Pain have always been an accompaniment
SOS for the broken-hearted
Dose of patience for patients
Love unpaid
A tragedy by Cupid
And what about love's companions?
Trust with care and friendship forevermore
Feelings encompassing thoughts
Heart conquers mind over matter
Another impossibility? No

26 january 2002

JUST THINK ABOUT IT

Too paradoxical, too complicated
Having so many souls and colours
Blinding because of too much of everything
Minds coerced by uncertainty
Fathom opposes my reality
Adrift like a hypnotic specter
War games with avatars and archangels
Vanishes all at once through incineration
Fantasy with djinns, krakens, and boas
But who else knows reality?
Each is exceptionally unique
Rarer even in values we hold
Quixotic would be a fit description
To be or not to be? Sane?
Better buried a feet below the ground
What to make of eternity
Nothing
Time to be a god of yourself
Freedom never before experienced
Indescribable, undefined
So, is there something on your mind?

12 february 2002

ISNAB

Hindi muna kita pinansin
Kasi di ka rin naman sa akin nakatingin
Pag ikaw nama'y aking kausapin
Tinatapos mo agad ang ating usapin
Gusto pa naman kitang kaibiganin
Kasama sa lahat ng iyong tatahakin
Pero ako'y iyong iniiwanan para mapanis
Lahat na lang ng gagawin ko'y nakakainis
Tatakbo sayo ng palayo at nang mabilis
Pag ika'y galit at nagmumukhang epis
Na kaka-sawsaw lang sa patis
O bakit ba ako'y ayaw na ayaw mo?
Pinandidirian at pinagsasabihan ng kung anu-ano
Na ako ay imoral, tanga, at bobo
Mas marami ka pa atang alam na salita kaysa iyong lolo
Ba't isa ako sa iyong mga hindi gusto?
Buti pa'y punta na ako sa isang mataas na tulay
At ako na ay magpapakamatay
Wala naman akong kwenta sa iyong buhay
Basta wag ka lang pumunta sa aking lamay
Baka pati dun e isnab ka pa rin

20 march 2002

GLORY

We are alone in the oppressing dark
But luminous power is granting our hope
Walking without a path and a destination
Looking for the way to the heavens
In a moment, we'll see beyond the woods
A beam of light to shine
Two hearts warmed by the generous day
Free clouds are flying
Present to change the malign weather
A shadow of the ship passes us by
One must leave for the path is unclear
Grieving forest sways its leaves to the wind
We'll soon meet and then be together
Chased by soldiers without authority
Hide in a corner, saved by you
They left not noticing the brightly lit room
Now a strong company to reckon with
Tangible memories accustomed to love
For you, everything will be free
The gods dine with our presence
Together we find our home

28 july 2002

FOR MY CRITICS

You who read my papers
What kind of critic will you be?
To my works or to myself
Will I be a man of intrigue?
Will my works be applauded?
What have you found out about me?
What meanings will you recognize my work?
Time passes us like a cloud
Changes happen
And soon it's difficult to learn
I'm lying in the bed
Thinking and waiting for the words
Which soon float around my head
What to say or what to write
Living with this kind of life
I urge all to understand this
Variation in all ideologies
Senselessness popping out
Revelation unfold
For me to be eternal
Have you got it?

11 march 2002

COOL GIRL

I fell in love with you
And your body and mind
And everything that you do
Then I gave up on you
Coz you're not mine
And I make you blue
I'm a king, a star
A lowlife beggar
I'm an actor, a priest
Kneeling to say the least
In a tragedy of breaks
We cry, I cry the most
I'm a lover, an addict
Nobody ever so strict
I'm an assassin, a player
Into bending a mind-reader
You'll see me smile
Nothing so damn worthwile
But then again I fell back on you
Coz I realize
I live in the world that you knew

10 july 2002

CONDITIONS

All is in the absolute
The wanderings of my incompleteness
The recklessness of abandonments
Sadness engulfing hope
Contrivable melancholy in misery
Essence of all being
By observation of nothingness
Damnation of the living
Enough food for the eternal soul
Omnipresence of confounded love
Tortured by hate on the other side
Freedom's absence in predestination
A flash of darkness seen
White forever tainted by black
Lies begets itself
Knowledge imparted is transitory
Wise words formed
But a man knew more
That he knew less
Obviously, what is seen?
All is in the absolute

25 january 2002

BACKING OUT HESITATION

Am I gone in your eyes?
We haven't even said our goodbyes
You know I hate it when things end
So much left undone and to be tend
I had no other choice to make
I did it for our own sake
Still, I didn't want it this way
Hating every single day
Now I'm dropping on my knees
Not a beggar asking, just saying please
Things that I never wanted to do
And it's all because of you
Made me think I'm a nobody
Always thinking 'slap-u-silly'
You've hurt my pride and made me cry
Can't bear any longer-wanting to die
After all those things, I still didn't change
My life is now a shooting range
Bullets speeding past my chest
Soon I will have to rest
But for now, I still love you

30 june 2002

ADVERSARIES

Is it the other way around?
Like hate crumbles in love
Or infinity that is bound
Or up and down; below and above
The way things all started
Was there order or confusion?
Light in darkness aggravated
Armageddon, the end of creation
How near is far?
Or is absence always present?
And what's the plural for singular?
Would you like it straight or bent?
Abdication of lies in honesty
Like blocking a strong hit
If permanence is transitory,
Then originality can never be mimicked
How to defend an offense
Being upset over hapiness
The complexity of simplicity
Pull of life after push of death
The other side of the coin

25 january 2002

A FRIEND

Stand by my side
Fellow surfer of this tide
Riding in a glistening silver
Better like this than a diver
Let us shout till our lungs are out
Doing all this without any moment's doubt
Then smile with what confronts us
Coz we're sailing with class
Of all the fun and laughter we shared
You're still the one I cared
Whether you fall down or stumble
My life for you I always gamble
Together we stand amidst the crowd
For being with you I am proud
I'm lucky to have met you
Thank you for everything...now
Forever you will always be with me
So I'll never say goodbye
Even as time passes us by
And let the moments fly high
Until the day I die

4 march 2002