BACKING OUT HESITATION

Am I gone in your eyes?
We haven't even said our goodbyes
You know I hate it when things end
So much left undone and to be tend
I had no other choice to make
I did it for our own sake
Still, I didn't want it this way
Hating every single day
Now I'm dropping on my knees
Not a beggar asking, just saying please
Things that I never wanted to do
And it's all because of you
Made me think I'm a nobody
Always thinking 'slap-u-silly'
You've hurt my pride and made me cry
Can't bear any longer-wanting to die
After all those things, I still didn't change
My life is now a shooting range
Bullets speeding past my chest
Soon I will have to rest
But for now, I still love you

30 june 2002