Realization and Response

You never had feelings for me
I see now I am never who I want me to be for you
I'm not saying it's a waste of time, though
I have accepted you and what happened
Actually, I have accepted that the end has begun
I have been blind for a long long while
Not seeing what I don't want to see
Because even a glimpse is already too much pain
Not the kind of pain that will simply go away
And so I pretend
To look happy when I'm sad
To smile when I feel like crying
To be smart after being foolish
And to love even though that love is not re-payed
The first thing I want to do is to get it back
From where it all began
The way things used to be before everything changed
Realization of the future sets in
And I know I have to move on
And I know I will
Just that, I want it to be a little bit sooner


2 July 2011