Confessions

the thing is i love you
that's really all there is to it
well, it kind of took me by surprise
i never wanted to tell you how i feel
i will be vulnerable you knowing how i feel
maybe because i was kind of hoping that
the next i fell in love with will be my last
and to think that it would be with you
you were never surprised, were you?
you even said you were waiting for me to open up
but why would you want me to?
when you later said i am nobody to you?
hell, you may not know how you feel
or maybe you do and have reservations
if that is the case then
whatever those reservations are i respect them
or maybe you really just don't feel the same way
and you're taking for granted the feelings i give
but still, in the end, they don't matter
i know how i feel so i had to tell you
and i hope that everything's alright


7 July 2011

Realization and Response

You never had feelings for me
I see now I am never who I want me to be for you
I'm not saying it's a waste of time, though
I have accepted you and what happened
Actually, I have accepted that the end has begun
I have been blind for a long long while
Not seeing what I don't want to see
Because even a glimpse is already too much pain
Not the kind of pain that will simply go away
And so I pretend
To look happy when I'm sad
To smile when I feel like crying
To be smart after being foolish
And to love even though that love is not re-payed
The first thing I want to do is to get it back
From where it all began
The way things used to be before everything changed
Realization of the future sets in
And I know I have to move on
And I know I will
Just that, I want it to be a little bit sooner


2 July 2011

Let Me Send My Goodbye

Goodbye to your laughter, loud but cute

Goodbye to your randomness, surprising but fun

Goodbye to your smile, refreshing and real

Goodbye to your friendship, but only for now

We never connected, but we definitely bonded

We never dated, but we always hang out

We never talked much, but when we do it's deep

We never thought this would happen to me, but it did

I gave you my trust and care

I gave you my secrets and honesty

I gave you my travels and attention

I gave you my principles, my love

Thank you for the pasta and fries

Thank you for the conversations

Thank you for the time

Thank you for you just being you

From Melodies of Life -

We met

We laughed

We held on fast.. and then

We said goodbye

2 July 2011

Love Not Taken

Out on the porch waiting for the rising sun
Still thinking of you as you sleep in the bed
I can only gaze at the sliding door
You're inside the room, so near yet so far
I have given a lot and asking nothing back
But what good is a man with broken principles?
Disappointing, yes, yet you have made me more
Of what I am and what I should be
Love comes in many unexpected ways
I would say you are the most surprising
You've changed a lot since then
I don't like that and still I love you more
I miss your spontaneity and mature personality
You are still beautiful, always is
Sadly, you will never know of this
And so I say this to you through written words
Is it weird that I love you?
Because I do, I even find it funny sometimes
But it's true and you know it too
That all I have from you will only be memories
Of a love that will never come to be


2 July 2011